{Underneath the Stars.

Monday, July 28, 2008

smile~

2:16 AM

it was nice to escape for a while...

superheroes, damsels in distress, charming princes...

mythical creatures, legends, uncomplicated relationships. well, sort of.

it's a nice feeling.

let me savor it for a while before i return to reality

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Monday, July 21, 2008

when will you get married?

2:01 AM

i was browsing facebook and saw this quiz: when will you get married?

i was bored and decided to give this a try... and here's the result:

When Will You Get Married?

Use the patented WEDDING ALGORITHM A.I. to determine when your wedding date will be. Are you going to get married to your one and only in the next few months, or will it be a long decade before you walk the aisle?

According to the Wedding Algorythm, You Will Marry In: 4 YEARS AND 1 MONTHS

wow... is this true or not. if it's true, i don't know whether to be happy or sad about it. but that means only one thing: more time to hang out with friends, more time to progress into my career (FTW... this i got to see, erm.. feel), more travel time! That is, if my friends don't decide to marry in the next four years. LOL

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Sunday, July 20, 2008

colorgenics... ^^

3:42 AM

found this at tam's LJ.. and i was like "O_O is that me?"

lookie:

"You are constantly trying to make a favourable impression and endeavouring to be considered as that someone 'special'. You are pretty good at using various tactics and strategies that give the impression that you are in control. Maybe you are - but you are constantly watching to see whether or not your endeavours are truly appreciated. Be careful... just as 'you' may be endeavouring to influence others, 'they' may indeed be influencing you.

Being a likeable person you get on well with neighbours and friends. You don't need anything to 'Rock your boat'. You want to 'love' and to be loved'.

You are feeling under considerable pressure and you are being forced to make concessions. You are not particularly happy with this state of affairs but you feel that you have no alternative. If you were to force issues you would be left out or completely ignored by one and all.

You are pretending that the situation around you doesn't matter, but the effort of trying to conceal your emotions and anxieties is resulting in untold stress. The existing situation is disagreeable. You feel unwanted and lonely and you would really like to associate with someone whose ideals are as high as your own. You want to be above the standard of mediocrity and this need to be needed and that need to need has almost become an obsession. You are trying to magnify the need into a compelling urge. You would really like to tell the world how great you are but no, you are holding back because you feel that your peers may treat you with contempt. This is a great pity because you have in fact a unique quality of character, but the continual restraint that you impose on yourself makes you suppress this need for others and you pretend you don't really care. You treat those who criticise you with contempt. However, to be honest, beneath this assumption of indifference you really long for the approval and esteem of others.

You are greatly impressed by individuality and have interest in people who have outstanding qualities. You try to imitate those people that you admire and their characteristics, hoping that you will be able to display similar qualities in your own personality."

okay... perhaps i don't know myself as well as i thought. or maybe it was because i was randomly picking out the colors i liked? *sigh* anyway, you guys decide

click here for cologenics

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Sunday, July 13, 2008

those were the days~

2:36 PM

finally found ana's fic... this is on the spot and T.T

i miss ana's drabbles... and ym conferences... T.T when did life began to be so hectic and complicated? T.T

ana's on-the-spot drabble:

if loving 2 persons at a time is a sin then let me die.

i love them with my life, but by loving them both only hurted them. the irony that is, and i thought loving meant the world.

so maybe i thought i was destined not to pick anyone of them, kang in took one away because my attention was divided

the other was taken by tim... and then i was left alone.if life was like this then i would die a million deaths each day... living without them...
looking at them from a far seeing that they're happy, happy before i leave them...

i wanted them to be happy with me but the world doesnt allow this kind of love. love i thought was universal and accepted but what is this?

i love them till now and that will never change, coming back to korea i thought i would find a way and make it work.i 1st went to tin, i saw her. in the park i was about to walk towards her when i saw a kid running towards her...calling her umma... with kangin tailing from behind

half of me was crushed but the other half was still alive rooting for that other someone who would make my heart whole... i was told that she could be found in church today so i hurried

i got there... not expecting to see a wedding
dette was the bride, tim was her groom.

and right then and there i felt it all ended.my love for them stayed the same and it hurted.maybe i am really destined to be alone. i'll forever be.

~end~

found it at the old dongbang world forum (http://z11.invisionfree.com/dongbangworld/index.php?showtopic=57). *sigh*

i miss the bangers <33

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*sigh*

12:10 PM

i'm not happy right now.

you can say i'm in a state of confusion.

hope this goes away soon.

T___T

i miss you baby... miss you terribly :(

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Saturday, July 12, 2008

there's always goodbye :(

12:02 PM

i guess nothing describes work life at ACS as best as the quote "the only permanent thing in this world is change"... everything seems to be changing so fast that i can't keep up T.T (oh wait, scrap that.. there is something permanent, me and my job *sigh* T__T)

anyway... i had the surprise of the week just this friday morning. i pinged Mark Steele (one of the friendliest LAN guys in Sandy, ever!) to ask his advice about a query from a UPS guy... and as expected, he answered my question the best he can... then he dropped a bomb:

Mark Steele	that sounds good	5:07:08 AM
?	As a heads up, today is my last day	5:07:40 AM
?	It's been good working with you and the team out there, and thank you for all your help in the past.	5:08:02 AM
Bernadette De ...	oh no... first Kevin.. now you	5:08:29 AM
Mark Steele	It's the way of things unfortunately,	5:10:11 AM
?	I know how hurt you all were when kevin wasn't able to say bye, and I didn't want to repeat that.	5:10:33 AM
?	Thank you again

i wanted to cry right then and there. Mark was one of the friendliest and most approachable LAN engineer i have ever had the chance of working with and now he's leaving. *waterworks coming*

anyway, as he said, it's the way of things. i'm just glad that we were able to work with him. it has been a delight and we'll surely miss him. we've learned quite a handful from Mark, and for that we are eternally grateful. hopefully, the guy who's going to replace him will be as friendly and approachable as him. i have a feeling that James Bosworth is, since i pinged him in Sametime and he seems to be so nice. but still ... *sniffles*

this is the one thing i admire about Americans... they don't have this emotional attachment to work that we filipinos have. or maybe that's just me since most of the people I've worked with had no qualms about quitting and moving on. aish.. it's because i think too much. *sigh* i'm praying that i can soon find the courage to pack up, leave and find the job i want. *another sigh here* some people say i have that "potential" to make it big and that i just have to wait... but the question is... how long am i going to wait? time is ticking and time isn't something we can take back...

geez.. forget about working. maybe i should start my own business. ^_^V it has been my plan all along... time to do some research! ^_^

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Tuesday, July 8, 2008

inis~

5:13 AM

first i got some people mad/disappointed for agreeing to place them at the back... and then i get to read a post where it says that my group was prioritized....

ano ba talaga mga ate????

at ito lang masasabi ko.. kung napipilitan kayo pumunta, wag na lang kayo pumunta. sayang ang mga upuan. lech...

takte naman.. sa susunod wala nang reserve reserve. potah.

mga taong antipatika nga naman.

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Monday, July 7, 2008

どうして君を好きになってしまったんだろう？

12:30 PM

grabbed from hannah...

because of the hectic thingies happening the past 2-3 weeks, i haven't fully appreciated this song... and now i do. waaaaaahhhhh T.T

sadness and tears *sniff*

どうして君を好きになってしまったんだろう？
(Doushite kimi wo suki ni natte shimattan darou?)

ROMANISATION

Doushite kimi wo suki ni natte shimattan darou?
Donna ni toki ga nagaretemo kimi wa zutto
Koko ni iru to, omotteta no ni
Demo kimi ga eranda no wa chigau michi

Doushite kimi ni nani mo tsutaerarenakattan darou?
Mainichi maiban tsunotteku omoi
Afuredasu kotoba, wakatteta no ni (mou todokanai)

Hajimete deatta, sono hi kara
Kimi wo shitteita ki ga shitan da
Amari ni shizen ni tokende shimatta futari

Doko e iku no ni mo issho de
Kimi ga iru koto ga touzen de
Bokura wa futari otona ni natte kita
Demo kimi ga eranda no wa chigau michi

Doushite kimi wo suki ni natte shimattan darou?
Donna ni toki ga nagaretemo kimi wa zutto
Koko ni iru to, omotteta no ni (mou kanawanai)

Tokubetsu na imi wo motsu kyou wo
Shiawase kao de tatsu kyou wo
Kirei na sugata de kami sama ni chikatteru, kimi wo

Boku ja nai hito no tonari de
Shukufuku sareteru sugata wo
Boku wa dou yatte miokureba ii no darou?

Mou doushite kimi wo suki ni natte shimattan darou?
Ano koro mo, bokura no koto, mou moderenai (kangaeta) modorenai (kangaeta)

Doushite kimi no te wo tsukami ubaenakattan darou?
Donna ni toki ga nagaretemo kimi wa zutto
Boku no yoko ni, iru hazu datta (sono mama nii)

Sore demo kimi ga boku no soba nara to itte mo
Eien ni kimi ga shiawase de iru koto
Tada negatteru
Tatoe sore ga donna ni sabishikutemo (setsunakutemo)

Credits: crescent @ boajjang forums
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TRANSLATION

Why have I fallen for you?
No matter how much time passes,
I thought that you would always be here
But you chose a different road

Why wasn't I able to convey to you?
My feelings that were growing everyday and night
The words begin to overflow
But I know they won't reach you now

From the first day that I met you
I felt like I knew you
And the two of us melted together so naturally

Wherever we would go, it would be together
It was so natural for you to be with me
We became adults together
But you chose a different road

Why have I fallen for you?
No matter how much time passes,
I thought that you would always be here (but not anymore)

For the day that holds a special meaning
For the day where we can stand with happy faces
For you looking beautiful while praying to god

Next to the person who is not me
There is the figure of someone truly blessed
So how am I supposed to see you off?

So why have I fallen for you?
We can't go back to that time, or how we were (I've thought it through)

Why wasn't I able to take your hand?
No matter how much time passes
You were supposed to be at my side (just like that)

But, even though I say that I need you close to me
I just pray that you will be happy forever
No matter how lonely that makes me (or how sad)

Credits: crescent @ boajjang forums + dbskarchives.blogspot.com
Video credits: YoujuChan@youtube

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Sunday, July 6, 2008

thank you~

10:23 PM

to all those who went to the Pops In Seoul Kpop party yesterday, A VERY BIG THANK YOU!

it was so fulfilling to see more than a thousand people gathered together. sana hindi kayo nadala and i sincerely hope to see all of you in the next event.

to those in the provinces (or other countries) and can't attend the event, you were with us in spirit. and i'm not referring to the ghosts in the venue. thanks for the support and the love <3 hopefully you can make it to the next event. :)

to those who where disappointed, i'm sorry. but please know that we did the best we could.

all the hardwork for the past 2 weeks paid off. and i owe it all to you guys.

and thank you to the group who greeted me a happy birthday outside the venue (after the event)... pasensya na at lagi na lang ako haggard pag nakikita nyo >.< but super thank you sa pagbati. mahal ko kayo. *huggles*

in behalf of Leo and Geunmi (Arirang staff who spearheaded the event), as well as the staff of ATPh, thank you so much and we hope to see you at the next event.

i heart you all. ^_^

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