Tuesday, September 4, 2007
it's been forever
10:47 AM
literally... it feels like i haven't updated this blog for a month. aahh, that pretty pink layout just went to waste. T__T guess i have to make up for everything this september... ^^ september layout, it's pretty simple. i merely picked it at random. and it's not designed by d.lockheart. i was looking for new layouts from him, but i guess the blog layout artist is in hiatus. so i settled for this one na lang. quite simple, but that's what actually caught my eye. plus, it uses two of my favorite colors, grayish black and pink. okay, i'm not sure if there is such a color as grayish black or blackish gray, but like it. now i have to remind myself to change the playlist. i have to think of songs, fast...
*sigh* speaking of songs, i'm not that updated with kpop anymore. heck, i was surprised to know that TVXQ's got a new single out already. Just saw the PV of Shine and it was good. i like it. and just like tintin, i was amused by the water that was splashing everywhere. i like it a lot better than Summer Dream. but Summer Dream is cute, if not for the extremely gay choreography. it kinda reminds me of Sky. *shudders* guess it just has to grow on me before i like it, lol XD
what i lack in updates in kpop, i made up in Hana Kimi Japanese version. i am absolutely in love with the series. Toma Ikuta is love. i love him, but of course, i am always looking forward to Shirota Yuu's short appearances in the episodes. You cannot blame me, that guy is sizzling hot. haven't downloaded episode 9 but i have watched it on veoh. guess the hardsubbed downloadable from SARS will come out sometime this week. hehe... i am so looking forward to watching it again.
speaking of Japanese series, i have finally finished Liar Game. whew... the last episode was 2 hours and 25 minutes long... and i think it's not really worth that long. I mean it was like a summary of the previous 10 episodes, only this time, with excerpts of what happened in between. it was pretty interesting though. but i am so sorry to tell everyone that Erika Toda is still the same naive girl, from the first episode to the very last. now i know why i don't like her. grrr-ness....
as for Why Why Love, very recent episode i've downloaded is episode 10. haven't watched it yet, but i read somewhere that it was only 14 episodes long, so i guess i don't have to wait long. i'm going to finish this series first before i download Coffee Prince. and while i download Coffee Prince, i am going to start with The Devil.
currently on episode 17 of Heroes, and i am loving it. i have to finish the first season and start looking for the episodes of the second season. ^^
as for work, it was like hell. first one of the servers was down for well over a week, then we started to panic because the new system that we will be using is still not accessible. we have to open ports in Sandy, plus the Indian guys are so... never mind. *sigh*
i expect another work to be fine till friday. friday is the D-day for us, where we go "live" with the new system. aish. now i have to go and study the new system before we go live. worse, my access is different from my team mates. ahuhuhu...
oh well, at least i have cebu to look forward to next week. it's my escape. ^^ time for me to get away from work and have a good time. will list down my itinerary as soon as it's final. yey....
and thanks, izce, for coming with me. ^^ *hugs*
i have a list of local places i want to go to: - Batanes (where the view is so breathtakingly awesome, it's like you're in Ireland...)
- Davao
- Bohol (to see the Tarsiers... Nelissa, you promised we'll stay at your house there!)
- re-visit Baguio
- Sagada
- Vigan
oh yes, so far that's my list. and of course, we are going to Bangkok this december! that's for sure. ^^
some random pictures i took at work. lol XD we get so bored sometimes that we just take pictures. ^^


my Starbucks tumbler, stuffed toys, pillow and McDonald's - on my workstation XD


and have i mentioned how much i love the mirror on our building's elevator?
allows me to camwhore. lol XD
more pictures next time, i'm sure of it. ^^
pretty satisfied with my "come-back" post. XD before i go, i read something from a friend's friendster profile. and i think it's nice... read on:
All your life, you had specific dreams about what your family life would be like when you're finally married. You were so intent on what you wanted; you even made a list of qualities and characteristics you were looking for in a spouse. But time passed, and that person you were so intent on didn't come along. All of your friends married, had children, and had beautiful homes. And still you were single. You prayed and prayed and prayed for that person to come along, but nothing happened. So you began an active search for a mate. And within a short period, you met someone who almost fit the bill. Almost. Sure, there were a few things missing, a few rusty spots in that person's character. But, after all, no one is perfect. Maybe your goals were too high. Maybe you'd been asking for the impossible. Maybe this was the person God wanted for you so your character could grow through dealing with his failings. Even though it often seems that God is slow to answer prayers, we have to remember that God doesn't wear a watch. He sees with eternal eyes. He operates on an eternal timetable, according to His plan and His schedule. If God seems to be running late, don't get impatient and run ahead of him. Wait for the Lord's timing in everything. To the single folks out there, this is for you. Single means you have the time to grow and be the person you want to be. Single means learning to live by yourself. However, that is no more difficult than learning to live with somebody else. Single means freedom. Single means learning not to need a man to make your life meaningful, but learning to live with a man because you want to be with him. Ironically, yet quite happily, single is feeling good about being in control of your life. It is liking and respecting who you are and why you are. Single is realizing that being married is not necessarily better, it is merely different. Being single means you are free to love again.
nice noh? and it really is true. i'm not single, but i can totally relate to the article. ^^ this goes to all my friends who are single and loving it ^^
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Now playing: Coyote Ugly OST - But I Do Love You Labels: Jdorama, layout, random, reviews
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Sunday, June 3, 2007
fics + quotes
1:11 AM
currently reading the following fics: Black Coffee Talk by Kami, Lavender Bunny and Tarnished Angel by wedspawn. Let's see, we have JaeHo's So Much Mine, YooSu's Lavender Bunny... and now it's baby Changmin's turn with Tarnished Angel!! Guess who he's paired up with?? Se7en!!!
first, Black Coffee Talk by Kami. like Kiss the Sky, this is a Fly to the Sky fic. i loved Kiss the Sky so much that i just have to read other works by the same author. so far it's good. i like it, but i like Kiss the Sky better. maybe i just love emo fics? but nevertheless, the story is interesting. characters in Black Coffee Talk are the complete opposite of the characters in Kiss the Sky. really, polar opposites. i'll continue blabbing about it after i finish reading it.
as for Lavender Bunny and Tarnished Angel... i'll talk about it after i get into almost half of the story. but it is very interesting... i love the way wedspawn writes ^^
now, the quotes from
wedspawn's
one-shots that are part of
So Much Mine Universe! i gave up getting the quotes from So Much Mine, there are a lot of new fics to read. but if and when i get the chance to re-read So Much Mine, I'll make sure to jot down the quotes. ^^
i love these... but take note, some quotes are rated
R-18!!! XD
From
Stolen Cherry Blossoms:
Tracing the damp spot, Yunho placed the tip of his index finger into the dip under Jae’s nose, touching its slight slope. “My mother told me once that the reason we all have this spot above our mouths is because God sends an angel to each baby and its given all the wisdom of the universe.”
...
“Then, just before the baby is born, the angel touches it right there, between the upper lip and the nose, leaving that mark. And everything that the baby was taught is forgotten, and is his to gain all over again.”
“That’s the first gift we’re given.” Yunho lifted his head to stare down into Jae’s warm eyes. “We’re given innocence and the thirst to regain everything we’ve lost. I think, in loving you, I’ve filled that thirst tenfold. I can’t think of anything else I would want to have in my heart and soul but you.”
~-~-~
Laying a brushed kiss against Jaejoong’s forehead, Yunho sighed and held the scent of the other in his soul... “I would stay here forever if I could. Seeing your eyes shimmer… and I see myself reflected there. It’s like I exist inside of your very soul as I plunge deep into your body.”
“It’s strange sometimes, when we are making love and I see my face in your eyes. But then I realize, that’s where our souls make love…in our eyes. We’re joined there as tightly as our bodies are.” Jaejoong’s words were languid, deep with sated lust. “Sometimes I wish I would stain them, so you always have me with you. You could blink and see me, no matter where we are, we’ll be just there.”
“I have you in my heart, Joongie.” Yunho rubbed his cheek against Jaejoong’s... “Every time it beats, I hear you whisper my name. You live there in me. And I can hear me in you.”
from
A Sparkle of Gold:
“Every time the sun rises, I am amazed that it can even show its face when it should be hiding in shame for daring to challenge your beauty.” Yunho whispered, leaning slightly forward to brush the shell of Jaejoong’s ear with his sultry voice.
~-~-~
Tucked amid the glittery gold tissue, a forlorn feline rag doll peered up at Yunho, its black button eyes wide and childish in its face, nearly the size of his head and patterned with a crazy quilt of fabrics that were rich in texture. Its body was cobbled together from pieces of cloth and as Yunho lifted the liger clear of his golden prison, the leader could see the rough stitching along its limbs as they flopped around Yunho’s hands....
“I made him.” Jaejoong’s whisper was barely audible over the crackling of the wood in the fireplace and Yunho turned a teary gaze to Jae’s stunning face. “He is not perfect…and I thought, that of anyone, he could be loved by you even though he is not perfect.”
....Yunho cradling his lover tightly. “I love him all the more because he is not perfect. Because he is a part of both of us. Because he was made by your hands and for my heart. How could I not love him as much as I love you?”
from
Hint of Lemon and Kisses - the fic that made my heart feel for baby Min... *sniff*:
“I worry that.. he’s not happy.” Changmin worried at his lower lip, dropping his eyes to stare at the rub between their beds. “Do you ever wonder what makes people happy?”
“Sometimes.” Yunho admitted, his face clouding over. “But it doesn’t mean that you can do anything about it, Minnie-ah.
People have to find their own happiness.”
~-~-~
Changmin slid onto the floor to sit next to Yunho. “I would bet on it. It just made me wonder if kissing anyone would make someone…forget the pain of wanting someone they can’t have. That if a kiss from someone you love in your heart as a brother helps take the agony away from your broken heart.”
...
“Because I wonder if a kiss would make my own heart stop from hurting.” Saying those words aloud cost Changmin, the secret of his soul bared for the leader to steal. Yunho failed to see the veracity in Changmin’s slender face, lost in his own thoughts....
“Perhaps it’s not for me either.” Changmin said, touching Yunho’s shoulder. “We tried it and didn’t like it. And no one else has to know. It’s between us. No more apologies, hyung. It was something we both needed to discover…to find out if what we desire is a touch and not the beat of a heart that matches ours.”
... Changmin let his emotions weep down in the depths of his soul only after Yunho left. “That kiss was for you, Junnie-ah.” Changmin sniffed, struggling to maintain his composure. “I gave Yunho my first kiss because you are so unhappy here and the elders…they need each other so badly. Please, when this is all over, forgive me for giving away something that should have been yours.”
~-~-~
“You’ve fallen hard, Boo.” Yoochun laughed, hearing the singer’s heart in his words. “I’m falling right next to you. I hope I land as soft as you have.”
“Nothing is soft about love.” Jae shook his head. “It hurts and scrapes you raw, leaving your wounds open and weeping. Then he kisses to make it all better and the world just stops turning, holding you there in that moment. And you never want time to start again.”
~-~-~
“You’re mine.” Yunho smiled at Jae’s narrowed eyes. “As much as I’m yours.”
“Sometimes.” Jae admitted before turning to leave the stairwell, a laugh in the echoes of his voice. “And sometimes, you are more mine than I’m yours, just because I don’t want to be owned. I just let you think that.”
from
Frozen Shadows:
Yunho whispered love into Jaejoong’s soul. “I promise you that one day, the whole world will know that we are meant for one another. Not just the shadows that are chased out by the day but every single face that turns to bask in your beauty will see the happiness I see in you when you smile at me. And God, you break me apart with that smile, it hurts to be so loved.”
~-~-~
The leader was determined to hold the other’s soul in his heart until they burned in the sky as one, starlight fending off the darkness in an eternal dance.
from
Pearled Ice:
"I’ll share your heart with the other members…because they’re your brothers.” Yunho whispered, sucking on Jae’s earlobe. “But your soul…that’s mine. I love you too much to want to share you. But I love you too much not to let you be free.”
from
Cookies and Fire (screams: YooSu!!!):
“That’s what I’m afraid of, Junnie-ah.” Yoochun admitted, tears glittering in his long lashes. “I’m afraid that I’ll want no one else but you and when you’re done playing with me, you’ll leave me with a broken heart. I’d rather wonder what it is like to have you than to have had you and feel you slip away from me.”
“You have to learn to take chances, Yoochun.” Junsu pressed his hands over Yoochun’s palms, the baritone still cupping the fullness of Junsu’s rear. “Sometimes, you have to trust someone in order to find out what pleasure can bring you...even if it’s mingled with pain. Isn’t that worth having? Aren’t I worth having?”
“More than you know.” Micky breathed, the candles flickering in the night air. “I just don’t know if I can walk through the fire you ignite inside of me. It burns so hot. There might not be anything left of me afterwards.”
from Lemon Ink (the tattoo!! it's about the TVXQ! Soul tattoo!!):
“Is that what you want, then?” Yunho moved in close, his stronger features hard and firm. “You want them to think that you and Yoochun are lovers? That you’re soulmates?”
“That’s not what it means.” Jaejoong snarled, pressing back against Yunho, nearly shoulder to shoulder with his lover. “Besides, if I want to put anything on my body, I will. I don’t need you to tell me how to think or to act off stage. Don’t get it in your head that you own me, Jung Yunho. Just because you have my heart, it doesn’t mean you have my life.”
~-~-~
“You’re the only person I given myself to…all of me. And you want more. Sometimes it’s too much, Yunho. There are thoughts and desires in me that I want to keep to myself for a while.” Jaejoong countered, looking straight into his lover’s eyes. “You just want everything as soon I have it. Taking, reaching inside of me and taking. You leave me breathless because you steal the air from my lungs and push your own back inside of me. And I love you for that. But some things… have to remain mine until I want to share them."
~-~-~
“Do you know why I did that?” Jaejoong asked softly, his face nearly buried in the encroaching darkness of the night. “The tattoo?”
...
“Because you bite me there. All the time.” Jae said, tangling his hands in his lover’s, their fingers spanning Jaejoong’s belly. “That’s where you find my soul every time we make love. Whenever I’m on my stomach, and you’re about to release into me, you bite me there. I ache for a few moments and then it just throbs into a soft burn, like how I feel when you first push into me. That’s why I had the inker put soul there. That’s where you bite into my soul and I never want you to let go.”
Yunho lay speechless against Jaejoong’s trembling body, the flushed heat of his anger searing Yunho as it left his heart. “And the… rest?”
“I put the band’s name there because you all are… there in my heart. I wanted something that showed that.” Jae whispered, cuddling back against Yunho’s chest. “You’re always behind me. You protect me and watch my back. With the tattoo there, I remember that.”
aren't the quotes/scenarios just love??
be back later or tomorrow... i have a celebration to attend! ^^
Sounds: Fly to the Sky - Magic Song
Labels: fanfic, quotes, random, reviews
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Monday, May 28, 2007
Queen of Wishful Thinking <33
4:53 AM
i just fell in love with yunho all over again. aaarrrggghhh!!! skyelee, the author of Queen of Wishful Thinking, really did it. omfg. it did what Compulsion did to me!!
I WANT TO MARRY JUNG YUNHO!!!
oh yes, i so agree with anne and the one who wrote that note in the story, if ever you find yourself "lost" and "away" from Yunho, just read this fic and you'll fall in love with Jung YunHo all over. waaahhh.. i am spazzing and i don't care. i cannot find a fault in this fanfic. i'm sure there are or there is but because i am too blinded by yunho's sweetness, i can't see it. dang.. i so want to be the girl in the story. and take note... the girl is two years older than my dear yunnie.
what is it with TVXQ and noonas? waaahhh... *kinikilig*
and it didn't help that i was listening to Miduhyo when i was at the part where YunHo randomly visited the girl to give her a present then the girl was saying "Isn't that what couples do?" omfg... i am so going to post some quotes here from that fic. now i owe you my dear readers (if i have any) quotable quotes from Queen of Wishful Thinking and wedspawn's one-shots...
and i owe you a decent review of this fic and The Bartender and the Beast. i don't have the courage to continue reading Undertones of Forever just yet. I'm still giddy because of all the sweetness i just read..
damnit jung yunho! you make me go crazy!!!
JUNG YUNHO is L-O-V-E!!!
Sounds: Dong Bang Shin Ki - My Little Princess
Labels: fanfic, love, reviews
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Sunday, May 27, 2007
fanfic + movie reviews and then some techie stuff
12:57 PM
i really really need to look for our Windows XP installer. it's gone missing and i don't know where to start looking T___T... i don't want to resort to buying another disc cos it costs around P8000 for the Full home edition. And what I'm using right now is WinXP Professional with Service Pack2. aarrrggghhh... and buying a pirated copy is out of the question. unless i get too desperate that i actually start looking for one. when it comes to operating systems, i try my best to get the real deal lest i experience some technical problems. aish... i need to start searching. *sniff*
speaking of techie stuff, i brought some Philips DVD+Rs, you know those expensive kinds that you see in Odyssey stores or something... and I must say, there's a reason why they're expensive. when you burn stuff on those cheapo DVD-Rs, most often than not you spend 30-50 minutes of your time burning right? as for philips, i spent less than 15 minutes burning 4.29Gb of files. whee~ now i won't be buying DVD-Rs from CD-R King. and it doesn't help that their DVD-Rs are often out of stock these days. so i'm settling with the expensive DVD-Rs. i guess it really is a matter of quality over quantity, ne?
moving on, i'm planning on buying a compact digicam. err... i dunno why, but i'm getting tired of my Sony Handycam. it's cool when you're taking vids, but the picture quality is just bleh... i'm thinking of buying a Nikon or an Olympus one. i need to decide soon. but i also want an SLR camera. pshh.. but i think i need to learn the basics of photography first... XD now a degree in LibArts sound appealing. hehe...
i still haven't updated my other blog. fics and movies occupy most of my time these days. but i will be updating it. maybe i'll just post an article i wrote when i was still writing for The LaSallian. yeah, that's what i'll do. kinda busy these days. fangirling and work does not mix XD
so what's to review? err... let's start with the movies. i'm supposed to post up the movie posters but DSL is being an @ss so i'd have to do it tomorrow or later. reviews:
Spiderman 3
okay, despite the negative comments and reviews i've been reading, this movie is actually quite acceptable. it's not as horrible as i've heard others say. it's not blockbuster material for me, but it will do. i just find it weird that even after Harry was able to hurt Peter, he just let everything slide. now that is not evil. okay, so maybe this is the SandMan's time to shine, but after the first and second movie dealing with Harry's father, it's quite disappointing that Harry didn't play much of an important role. and Harry ending up like that is sooo sad. maybe that's the reason why i find this movie kind of acceptable. i'm a sucker for sad endings. lol.. and it is sooo obvious that there's going to be a Spiderman 4. uurrgghh!! why can't American movies stick with just a sequel? sequels are nice... and less confusing.
so, my rating. let's see... out of 5 stars, i give this 2 stars (yeah, i am feeling more and more of a critic when i give out stars.. in fact i'll be doing that from now on. hehe..) mainly because of the reasons stated above.
Death Note (Japanese Movie)
just like the previous movie, i've heard a lot of negative things about this. never mind that i did read the manga, reviews were saying things like "if you love the manga, you'll hate the movie"... well, the movie is quite acceptable. i now understand why movies deviate from the manga or book's storyline. in this movie, Yagami Light (Raito) has a girlfriend. whereas in the manga, he's a handsome guy with no girlfriends (and i wonder why people don't mistake him as gay in the manga ??!!). as i watch the movie, i understand that this particular detail will play a huge role. i guess you guys will just have to read the manga and watch the movie to get what i mean. overall, they did a good job with the movie. i like how they presented everything, from the very beginning, till the last scene with Amane Misa. and of course, L is love. L has been my favorite ever since... anyway, it may not compare to the manga, but let's think, a movie is only around an hour or two long, whereas a manga can last as long as 100+ chapters. ^^
Rating: 4 stars (for trying to stick with the manga's storyline and for the superb CG, only thing is, i don't like the one who played Misa. yeah, this is my biased rating... so sue me. lol, this is my blog after all. hehe)
Death Note 2: The Last Name
this sequel is very very nice. i absolutely love it. this is one movie that every death note fan should never miss. even though it is soooo different from the manga, i love it. all details are properly thought out and even though Melo and Near didn't make it to the movie, it's quite fine. If you think about it, M and N's appearance in the movie would make it longer and i guess a third and fourth installment would be in order. but the way things ended in this movie... it's heart wrenching. well, to me it is because i just love L's character so much. to offer himself as the ultimate sacrifice to stop evil (naks, the drama) is so sad, but it was worth it. i absolutely love the final scene of L with Watari's picture. *sigh* i highly recommend this movie people!! go watch it if you don't want to miss half of your life! ^^
Rating: 5 stars ( the characters acting are awesome, the storyline was well plotted, the great CG is there as always, and of course.. L is l-o-v-e. don't agree with me? go write your own blog entry about the movie :P)
if you want to watch the two japanese movies, i suggest you go to www.crunchyroll.com and search for Death Note. the anime is also updated there. i'm currently waiting for episode 33 of the anime. yeah, i'm a DN-addict.
FANFIC REVIEW!!
okay, my last review was for Linked to You, My PingPong Boy and Just Maybe, right? err... did i miss anything?
moving on, the last chapter fic I read was The Bartender and the Beast by Moe/Amaranth. i love this fic, though i really didn't like the ending. by ending, i meant the last scene. it seems so plain when you compare it to the other scenes in the fic. or maybe i was just expecting something grand in the end considering that the whole fic is just so nice. err.. ok i think i'm not doing a great job of reviewing the fic. i think it's because i've read this over a week ago and i'm only writing about it now. plus the fact that i've been reading wedspawn's fics.. XD
okay, in order to be fair, i'll be re-reading the fic and then edit this. sounds fair to me...
i'm off to read. tagboard replies next time, i promise ^^
Sounds: Fly to the Sky - Illusion
Labels: fanfic, movies, reviews, techie stuff
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