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Labels: disappointment, frustrations, life, randomThere are some things you want to go back to... but sometimes, it would be better to just let those things be because you know deep in your heart, that it will never be like before again. Not only that, but you know that you won't be able to promise that the commitment will be there. So it's better to just leave it as it is now.
Sad but true. :(
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Sunday, January 20, 2008
*sigh*
i accidentally found out that someone i'd rather forget is coming back this tuesday. not that i care really, but i dread the day that i will meet him again. i'm afraid that if i see him again, all those things in the past will come rushing back...
and i'm too weak to stop it from coming back.
life sucks.
Sounds: nada - at work
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Wednesday, January 9, 2008
i'm tired of doing the same thing everyday for the past year. seriously. i want a new job. i need a new job.
there's a time in your life when you know you can do something better than what you are doing at the present. my friends, this is one of those times. T.T i guess the only thing that's stopping me from actually leaving my present job is that i've grown too comfortable with everything about it, from the work itself right down to the people i work with.
it's time to be adventurous. let the job hunting begin!!!!
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Tuesday, November 20, 2007
am i really back? i don't want to believe it. haha... it might be like this: i'm updating my blogs now, and then after a few days, i'm on hiatus again. T.T
as i've said to the CassPh core members i met last saturday, i am in work mode.
so i guess the best way to start this blog is updating my dear readers (hah! as if i have readers! ^.^) about what's been happening at work..... as if they would be interested! hehehe... just bear with me. i need to vent it all out.
HECTIC! argh! we're understaffed and it doesn't help that the supervisor is a bit insensitive. psh... sometimes i just want to scream, but what can i do? i'm honestly getting tired of all the promises and the stuff i've been hearing. i know the ones responsible are doing all they can, but hello... it's over a year already! where's the growth you're all talking about? i'm not normally this frustrated but when you're given a time to think and evaluate everything, it hits you. and it hits you hard.
done venting. i'll be back as my usual passive self when i get to work later. *sigh*
19 stickers to go!!! i need 19 more stickers till i get that starbucks 2008 planner! haha.. okay, i so prefer the planner last year, but there's just something about getting a starbucks planner that really gets to you. it's just seeing that card of yours fill up with stickers and realizing that once you fill that up, you'll be getting something in return... it's just so... addicting? yeah...
plus the fact that their coffee is ok. i so love caramel macchiatto (i honestly don't know how to spell it.. lol). as well as their holiday offering: toffee nut latte. but i am curious how the eggnog latte tastes like.
oh well, guess i have to go to the states to figure that one out. ^^
ok, done blogging for the day... hopefully, i'll be back tomorrow. ^^
tagboard people! i shall reply tomorrow! i miss you guys! :)
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Now playing: Lexy - Hit This Party ft. Kim Ji Eun
via FoxyTunes
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Wednesday, July 11, 2007
Labels: celebration, life, workhell yeah, i just turned a year older 2 days ago. but why does it seem like i'm still a kid. lol ...
anyway, birthday celebration last 07/08 with fandom friends was fun. it was so nice to see the bangers again. i missed those girls. and the angels too. thank you to all those who greeted me. got quite a number of SMS and YM messages... love you guys to death for remembering. *put hearts here*
celebration at the office was great too. though it would have been better if the whole LTGS Team, was there. but anyway, there's still more time to celebrate. hey, if my boyfriend can celebrate his birthday for a week, why can't i? lol XD
celebration at home was ok. everybody's out most of the day so i was home sleeping. and i got up and was late for work. hehehehe...
oh yes, that's right. he's in the Caribbean right now and he'll be there for 12 days for work. after that he's back to Atlanta for some other business thingies. then it's back home on august 15th. *sigh* well, even though he wasn't here on my birthday, he did promise that we'd take a trip to Sagada when he gets back. and i have been dying to go there ever since i saw pictures of the hanging coffins and the caves. i just hope there won't be any storms when we go. i'm happy. yey...
what else, oh! as usual, i did some shopping. lol XD it was my private birthday celebration for myself. before i forget, thanks LJ, for the wonderful gift. it was enough that you came over at exactly the time you said you were coming over, but the 3 years worth of gifts you promised were awesome. i love you boybespren! you will always be my one and only boybespren. lol.. cheesy, i know. but you deserve it! hah! let's just hope that the wife won't interpret this the wrong way. hehe...
to all those who greeted me on my tagboard, at friendster or wherever, THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! ^^
okay, enough. i'm sleepy. i wan't able to go to work last night because of the rain, so i have to be super early later. i'll update soon, promise! ^^
Sounds: Jed Madela - How Can I Fall
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Saturday, July 7, 2007
Labels: celebration, lifethis blog's layout/theme really fits my mood for July. aish, my birth month and i'm depressed.
moving forward, tomorrow July 8, will be my birthday celebration. too bad he won't be there on my birthday, but that's life *sniffles* anyway, kai and me will be celebrating our birthday together, and since we move almost have the same circle of friends, i think it will be a blast. to those i have invited:meeting place will be at glorietta food choices at 12nn. but the celebration will be at noraebang (i've been noraebang deprived for a few months now, not counting the gathering) at around 4pm. feel free to directly go there. ^_^
hmm.. tintin and me will be having our haircut at Tony and Jackey tomorrow also, before the celebration. AND!!! SOJU!! we'll have soju. i demand we drink soju. let's drink down all the depression and bitterness we may have. *sniffles*
wtf, i think i'm going to cry again T___T
by the way, THANKS FIN FOR THE GREETING *huggles*
and also: HAPPY SE7EN DAY! 07-07-07... L-O-V-E!
Sounds: Kattun - Special Happiness
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Tuesday, July 3, 2007
changed the playlist. i thought i would put something appropriate, something that would jive with the layout. i didn't mean it to be so sentimental and depressing. aish... i really just like that song from I'm Sorry, I Love You. and i really like the drama too. depressing stuff, i tell you. -__-
remember the on-again-off-again thingie i was talking about yesterday? oh yes, it's happening again. argh! i need to post some private stuff on my LJ. thank god i've got that, at least only a limited few can read some very private stuff. *sniff*
anyway, work was great. i can feel the freedom! bwahahaha! no more Chuck G. breathing down our necks. yey for the freedom of being part of ITO. but it's still a long way to go. we've got a lot of things to do. aish... contracts and agreements make my head go crazy. -__- now let's let bossing Anthony take care of that. ^_^
speaking... Why Why Love episode 3 hardsubbed is out! downloading it now. i think i'm one of the first three people who's actually downloading it, so download speed is like... SLOW!! but i don't care. i'm going to download it. ^^
there goes another nonsense post. oh well... till next time :)
Sounds: Fly to the Sky - Eternity
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Monday, July 2, 2007
Labels: celebration, fanfic, frustrations, life, love, movies, TW series, watch list, workit's july already and so a new layout is in order. of course, i picked one from d.lockheart's portfolio. i love his blog layout and designs...
so what can i say about this current skin/layout? it definitely shows what i'm feeling right now, on the first day of my birth month. *sigh* to make a long story short: this on-again-off-again sort of thing is not for me. the sometimes-long-distance thing is alright, but the on-again-off-again thing? i don't think so. it's frustrating, tiring and emotionally draining. heck, it's like a switch!! so let's let the one who went away, be away. *sniffles*
anyway, we have a newbie at work and i'll be training him. aarrgghh!! why can't they get female newbies?? the past 3 newbies that i've trained are all guys, and just one of them is cute. but hey, the cute one's married. geeeesshhh...
okay, enough about work...
finished watching the second episode of Why Why Love yesterday. the series is really funny! and i am loving Kingone Wang even more! he's so silly, especially during the behind the scenes. OMG.. he's so silly, sillier than Mike. and as promised, i will be posting screencaps, with Rainie Yang. XD but most of the screencaps will be available in my Multiply account. i made quite a few screencaps, pressing Ctrl+e like crazy everytime KingOne would do something silly and cute, also when Mike is so adorably cute! I can't wait for the third hardsubbed episode to come out. i love DoReMii and IFS for subbing the series... and thank you anne for making me intrigued enough that i downloaded the series. now i'm hooked!
screencaps! ^_^now time for some Mike-Rainie and Kingone-Rainie screencaps!!very, very good looking cast, ne? *nods* if you want to see screencaps of the behind the scenes, please go to my multiply account. link can be found at the side bar. ^_^
as for Liar Game, i am still waiting for the hardsubbed version of the last episode to come out. i just hope sacred cultivator can shrink the file size...
so let's see... i'm downloading Tuck Everlasting right now. this is one American movie that i love. and not just because that cutie (er, is the guy's name Jonathan Jackson? i forgot) is there, and also Alexis Bledel, i just love the movie. period. it's about living forever... and all that melodramatic stuff. and i do love melodramas. i think there's about 2 hours left before the torrent finishes downloading. love... ^_^
let's go to fanfics... i've got a ton lined up to read. i don't know where to start. but since i started with Conversations Between Us (because jhocel sent me a copy, which Anne compiled, thanks!!! *hugs*), might as well finish that. right now i'm on page 23. and i really find the story interesting. silly me, i browsed to the last part of the document and found out what happened to one of the gang leaders. huhuhu.. but that won't stop me from reading everything! yes, i am hooked. ^_^
still haven't finished Black Coffee Talk and Undertones of Forever, but i'm getting there. these two are a lot shorter compared to CBU, so we'll see how everything goes. and finally! sahbeL updated Close Your Eyes and Pretend!!! i am going crazy, he left us with a cliffhanger. *sigh* i really wanted to know what will happen to Jaejoong in the fic. Also reading wedspawn's Tarnished Angels, and finished with the lemon chapters. *evil smile* hehehehe... now what ChangMin and Se7en have is a real relationship! maybe not like JaeHo's forever, but something as intense. *grins*
aahh, this post is getting to be too long. i better stop here. hope i can update with something with sense tomorrow.
BUT,before i forget... there will be a birthday celebration on July 8... kai and me will be celebrating our birthday together, just like last year. as for invites, i'll be personally inviting people. so wait for my SMS, email, IM, or something.
that's just about it. till next time! toodles~
Sounds: Brian Joo - First Date
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Sunday, June 24, 2007
it's been almost a week since i've updated. but i just had to write this one down.
this almost killed me:“Why?” Jaejoong asked. “Why put a name on what you have? As long as you have it, does it need a label as long as both of you are happy?”
*sniff* that's a scene from wedspawn's Tarnished Angels. that is oh so true. reece's writing is love. i really admire how she writes. *hearts* and before you go around rejoicing because you think it's a JaeMin story, sorry to disappoint you love, it's a Min7en. we already have So Much Mine for JaeHo/YunJae and Lavender Bunny for YooSu ^___^
“Minnie-ah, it doesn’t matter who you love,” The older man said before kissing Min on the cheek, stroking at the singer’s soft hair. “It also doesn’t matter how you love. So long as you do.”
and while i'm at it, i'd like to wish Jeanne Bernadette Bello a speedy recovery. she was involved in a car accident a few days back. Jeanne is the 2006 Bb. Pilipinas 2nd-runner up as well as a schoolmate from High School. er, not to mention the fact that she's the ex of someone very special to me, as well as someone i consider a dongsaeng. lol XD now that i remember, she was also the one who wanted my position when i was the Chief of Administration in our CAT class. Jeanne's a very nice person, beautiful inside and out. and i'm very happy that she was able to get out of that accident in one piece. now a speedy recovery is in order, ne? ^^
and also, i got an offer from Emerson. salary-wise it was ok, plus the benefits and allowances were really .... wow. but wth, when i think about career growth, it sucks big time. i mean, i'm not currently supporting my family in the way my father is, so i really don't need a huge/big salary. as my officemate told me, why settle for a job you'll be in for 4654983 years with a big salary when you can actually stay in my current job and get promoted and then receive a big salary, even bigger than the one being offered by Emerson now. makes sense, right? besides, i like my job right now, even though it is quite toxic at times, and there are instances where i actually do more than what my job description requires. but heck, i love it.
hu-hum.. i have to go now. will be posting about the CassPH 3rd gathering in a while. i'll update as soon as i can. ^_^
but, wait! JHOCEL!!!! lol XD pasend nung fic, please ^^ straight yan ha? i've been reading a lot of yaoi/shounen-ai lately. i need a straight fic! lol XD sana pumunta ka nung gathering, ang saya! :)
Sounds: F.T. Island - 한사람만 (Han SaRaman)
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